Change in Perspective

When I started this blog, my perspective in writing was as if I was speaking directly to Bea.  In the later years though, when I transformed my blog into more of a journal of some sort, I began referring to Bea in the third person.  I remember the switch here was triggered by the fact that after my marriage ended, I didn’t feel I was wise enough to impart anything to Bea and address her directly with my thoughts.  I don’t know I guess then I felt my mind and emotions were in such a turmoil that I had to distance myself from Bea in my writing and couldn’t engage her in a conversation yet until the time I’ve composed myself and brought back some kind of an appeasement within me.  I liken this to the fact that at times when you find yourself in trouble or you’re going thru personal issues, you prefer to isolate yourself first until you’ve come to terms with what you’re going thru and have become ready to face the world again.  That’s just how it was with my writing as well.  I didn’t think then I could face Bea yet and tell her directly what I was thinking and feeling at that time as I myself was still sorting out my own thoughts and emotions.

But now years after I like to think I’ve moved past that stage and am ready to again impart wisdom to my little girl.  So from here on my writing will be directed to my precious girl.  All my entries now will again be a conversation with my daughter in hope that with this perspective, as Bea reads and re-reads my entries she will always feel as if I’m personally talking to her and somehow make my words more alive for her.  

With this book then Bea will always have a part of me with her and anywhere she goes.  I hope she will see this as a cookbook of some sort for her which she can always refer to find the perfect recipe that will best match whatever advice or food-for-thought she will need at any given point in her life.  This is what motivates me to maintain this blog and share with Bea as much as I can my own thoughts, realizations and experiences in life that she too can also learn from. The more entries I write, the more opportunities I have then to nurture Bea with my words and guide her thru life.  

So off I write. :)