As I was creating this list though, I realized it was kinda hard for me to think of things that make me happy which inadvertently then sends a warning signal in my brain. Does this mean I am a generally unhappy person, who has difficulty finding things that make her happy or just the type difficult to please overall? Hmmm…as far as I can remember, I always had that reputation of being difficult to please, even when I was still a baby. I seldom smile actually, a trait I carried all throughout my college years that eventually branded me as suplada or a bitch. It takes a lot for me to get amused or ecstatic. I really don’t know the reason behind this and as it might take a lot of psychoanalysis to unravel the mystery, I won’t dwell on that anymore. Basta, all my life, I was really never the type who’s mababaw ang kaligayahan. It takes a lot to make me laugh out loud.
But good thing, after college, I slowly turned this side of my personality around. It got easier for me to be happy in a group or get excited over something, even if it’s as simple as sharing a dessert with good friends or having long talks with someone. I like to think then that as I grow older, as I mature, I realize that there are so many reasons to be happy about life. That life is just too short to be grumpy and bitchy and bratty all the time. That being happy is not a consequence of what someone did for you or told you but is rather something you can find within yourself. Happiness doesn’t have to be triggered by an external factor. It is something that you can feel bubbling up from your insides, from the deepest of your heart, with no tangible reason or cause.
Hmm…I guess then that is the reason why it’s so hard for me to come up with a list. For at this point in my life, there is really nothing specific that makes me happy. I am just at that state where all is well, and even if it’s not, it just doesn’t matter. I am still happy regardless. I really can’t explain it well. Or then again, this just might be the state I have longed to be in for so long. I guess I am finally here. I have reached that end which makes me whole. I have found my peace.
- A nice long body massage
- Foot spa!
- Beach – just staring off at the sea, thinking of nothing, worrying about nothing…
- Super loaded ice cream with lots of toppings – nuts, brownies, cookies, no marshmallows…yummmm…
- A piece of super moist chocolate cake or the humongous Mango Bravo cake by Conti’s
- Goldilock’s eggpie
- Pan de Manila ensaymada (this is the type of ensaymada na you normally see in regular bakeries or panederia lang)
- Custard cake from this bakeshop in Greenhills which also sells those cubed hopias straight from the oven…hmmm…what’s the name of that bakeshop nga?
(stop! wait lang ha!, almost everything in my list has to do with food ah! Shucks! No wonder I’m this fat na! huhuhu…oh, well…:P) - Dining out with close friends and talking about anything and everything about life and love
- Receiving emails or calls from friends abroad and seeing friends I haven’t seen in a long time
- Having someone tell me I look good or pumapayat ako or having people praise my accessories…yezz…vanity!
- A well taken picture of my family
- A picture with Bea and Paolo where Bea is all smiles and is looking at the camera and Paolo looks “un-abnormal”
- Actually, any developed pictures of my loved ones I love seeing…a framed family photo
- Writing an entry in my blog
- Eating a hearty breakfast – eggs, fried rice, longganisa, tocino, pancakes, etc…I just love breakfast!
- Starbucks frappuccino
- Mrs. Fields Chocolate Chip Cookies
- A Venetto pasta, pizza
(hep, hep, hep! Ayan na naman e…bumabalik na naman sa food…hmp!) - Making Bea and Paolo laugh
- Getting a kiss and a hug from Lui and Sabs
- Tiangge! I so love shopping in tiangges and finding super good finds!
- Finding clothes that make me look payat
- Drinking fruit shakes especially during a really hot day…
- Strolling around anywhere with Paolo, HHWW…
- Grabbing a really great piece from ukay-ukay
- Cuddling with my family the whole day
- Eating my husband’s cooking
- Reminiscing the good old days and kulitans with my siblings
- Getting a call from my kuya
- Seeing my mom laugh out loud…I rarely see or talk to her now so hearing her laughter has suddenly become sweet music to me...who would have imagined…hehe
- Giving gifts
- McDonald’s cheeseburger and fries
- Potato chips and ice cold Coke
- Going home from the office without traffic and arriving at our house no later than 630 pm
- If I do get home late, seeing Bea wake up as I enter our room, all smiles and all ready to be picked up and kissed
- Seeing Paolo lift Bea up in the air, spinning her round and round where with each turn, Bea's laughter only goes louder and shriller
- Singing out loud Eraserheads songs in the car with my sister
- Eating out with my sisters…this rarely happens now so when it does, it’s just pure bliss
- Seeing Paolo in speaking terms with his mom….this also rarely happens so when it does, it’s not only pure bliss…it’s a miracle!
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