I know where I want to go, but...

Where?
Where do we go from here?
It’s not exactly clear…(lalalala…)

I am not sure if you know this song. It’s so 80’s I think so baka ako na lang nakakaalala ng kantang ito. Hehe. But as I was staring at my laptop just a second ago, this song popped into my head out of nowhere. I don’t know why. I haven’t even heard a single sentimental song that would remind me of this (as I am actually listening to my hard core hip-hop mp3s.) Hmmmm….but anyway, with these 3 lines though, I couldn’t help but feel that these lines exactly describe my current state of mind.

Because for the entire week really, I kinda found myself in limbo with my current work. My mind is all over the place. To sum it up: It’s here. It’s there. It’s everywhere. BUT IT. It’s funny because almost a year ago, I found myself in the same state. I was obsessing about the thought of finally conquering my passion, getting the courage to finally bid my corporate existence goodbye and say hello to what my heart has been screaming that I do for months (and maybe even years). And now, I am finding myself in the same state again. Only this time, it’s so harder now to fully say goodbye to a 9 to 5 job as I need financial security now more than ever. But then again, on the other side, now I actually have more time to do something about my passion and kinda like plant the seeds that will eventually allow me to take it on full time.

Hmmm…so now, I guess the question really is not anymore so much as where do I want to go. I already know where I want to go. I just don’t know yet how to get there. Or I already know how to get there except that I need support.

Gosh, I have to figure this out soon before it completely drives me insane. Or worse, before that fire in me completely dies down.

So really, I need to get there…FAST! HELP!