Last December 18 marked your very first independent steps! I was so glad I was sick in your loli’s house and didn’t report for work because if not, I would not have witnessed this great milestone.
It was in the lanai where you had your first steps. What I did was I had you hold Mr. Bear’s hand as I held the other. Then as you were walking, I slowly released my hold of Mr. Bear’s hand and soon you walked 4 steps all by yourself! Wutwoo!
That time I thought you would be walking independently pretty soon. However, as days passed by, I realized I was wrong. Although your interest in walking perked up and your love for exploring all areas of the house grew, your confidence didn’t. As you explore more, you sought my hand to hold on to more and more. It appeared your discovery of independence, of the unknown, only intensified your fear, your uncertainty.
And in life, many times you’ll find yourself uncertain. At first of course, when you find yourself anticipating a new experience or a new meeting, you feel excited, you can’t wait for you to get there. But once you’re there, once you’re in it, you can’t help but feel scared, uncertain.
You’ll come across this uncertainty at many points in your life – first day at school, first crush/boyfriend, first job interview, engagement, marriage – and during these times, keep in mind that my hand will always be ready to hold yours for support as I have done the first time you took your first steps.
I am always here Bea. I am always here for you. Remember that.
